maybe it's depression

But I feel like I should start over on the GAHN. I'll still use parts that I've written, but I don't feel like I'm doing a good job characterizing my main character. I haven't described the world very well. I feel like I'm doing the novelization of an action movie. Coincidentally, they're describing this same situation on NOTLP. I'll take my drugs, go for a walk, and maybe i'll feel better about things.

Stuck like a skank on linoleum

As I said previously, I have been rewriting the same part over and over again. I finally removed a large chunk of the scene that preceded the crap and tried again today. Somehow, I'm not sure that that half of the buddy pair in this story would act like that. I can't see him acting any other way, though.

I am pained by this. I feel like I've lost something important here. I feel like I should just start over. I'm not sure if this is my rabid depression or a desire not to suck so badly.

Rewrite of the GAHN

No, I'm not done. I've been rewriting the same portion several times over. That's probably why people say not to edit until you're finished. I can't go further until I get this right.

I've also started a new short story aimed at an anthology. I want to be realistic and say it won't be published. If I do that, I'm worried that I'll lose motivation like I normally do.

I wrote one short story that I hate. I think I'll just trash it. I need to rewrite/edit two short shorts that I finished recently. I need motivation to do that.

My primary goal is to further the GAHN and start on the next GAHN. I've got a billion other commitments, but I need to work on the GAHN. Every time I ignore it, it's like a tooth ache.